moments

there are moments when I can’t maintain eye contact

straining through knee-deep thoughts of you

and what appears to have been

A lack of labels was my fault

of this, I feel relatively confident

I never expected myself to thrive in your company

I never thought I could

Never dreamt of

Believing you enjoyed me

And you did, or do, I don't know

You showed me compassion

And I let it in

And, as I do, I gorged myself on it

eager for every morsel of enjoyment

of passion, of peace, of suffering free moments

Soon it will be summer

But I doubt it'll be enough